Confessions

I have a confession to make. The reason why I have not updated my blog is this: I have very little to report. In all basicness, I have been lazy. No, I have not shirked on my job and I have hung out with my friends. It was amazing leaving the ship with my two good friends and just hanging out at the pool doing absolutely nothing. I didn't have to bother about people who I work and live with. No, I don't mean that type of laziness, for that has its place. What I mean is I haven't done anything to make this become my trip. I have yet to find my niche in usefullness. I think God has let this pass because I needed to get used to my surroundings. Now I can feel his prodding. I'm starting to feel that missing niche. There are so many things to Africa. We can adopt a patient - go down to the ward and visit with a specific patient. We can go with one of the land teams. They go to all places, there is the growing, building, watching kids, esc... If I want to stay here awhile, I need to find something to do. I need to let God use me.
Some other things I am finding is the wonder of God. He never stops working on us whether it be large or small. Over the past few years he has been doing some major construction work on my self esteem. What other god does that? I have this amazing God who cares about how I view myself. I find myself talking to someone and catch myself thinking two years ago I would have wondered if I was a charity case for them. I tell people that, and my good friends believe me, but the people I just met, don't.
God also seems to be working on my patience. It may just be my imagination, but I keep getting the feeling that God is up to something and he won't tell me what. At least I am not sure what that up is. It is one of the most annoying feelings in the world as well as encouraging.
So maybe not much is going on outwardly, except maybe I changed my shampoo, but I feel like God is constantly changing me. It shall be exciting to see what God has up his sleeve for me and the rest of us.